My stomach is in knots!

Yes, my stomach is doing flips! I am getting so nervous, but it's an exciting nervous...Okay, well maybe it is a nervous nervous:) Lol. In the IF world it is like you are programmed to go ahead and think of the bad outcome instead of looking ahead to what could be your "turn" of being blessed with a child.

 I am a believer  in the Lord Jesus Christ and have been since October 2008 when HE drastically changed my life and gave me a new life in HIM. I have not been the same since & I don't plan on being the same. When you come to know Christ you see with His eyes instead of the worlds eyes and things are so much clearer. You actually see your purpose and why you are really here. I am here on this earth to do God's work and to better His Kingdom. If nothing else worked out for me on this earth I would still be okay because He has prepared and eternal Heaven for me and anyone else who believes on His name. Becoming a Christian is so much simpler than what people make it out to be. God sent His Son Jesus to die for us because we needed redemption and atonement for our sins and He was the only way. So all we do is realize that we are sinners and if we don't repent and ask for forgiveness we will not spend a moment in Heaven. You have to trust and believe in Jesus and you can be saved.

 I had to give that introduction about Jesus to lead up to what I am writing today. I am nervous about this not working, but I know that it is out of my control at this point. God is the creator of all life an He decides what happens. Will I be ready to accept a negative preg test easily? No, not at all, but I know I can move forward and I have a Savior that still loves me soooo much. I have tried to think of how I will react to it not working, but then I get mad because that is me not fully trusting the Lord. I asked Him to show me something today and all 3 devotions I read were "do not fear", "trust the Lord" and that "God has all the dots connected".....I believe in my heart that this IVF will work and I know the devil will tempt me with discouragement, but I know my GOD and how He works. He has brought us this far and He doesn't plan to leave us.

Psalm 25

Of David.

¹ In you, Lord my God,
    I put my trust.

² I trust in you;
    do not let me be put to shame,
    nor let my enemies triumph over me.

I am so blessed with an amazing support group so I know that I will be okay.....I thank all of my IF friends who are soooo supportive and I have one special lady who has been my ROCK through all this. She is my best friend Natalie Sparks. We met through Infertility and God had all the dots connected!! I don't know where I would be without her support and love. I love you Natalie Sparks. She is 33 or maybe 34 weeks preg right now and our prayer was we would be pregnant at the same time, of course hoping it was the beginning of the 9 months, but God can still allow us to be pregnant together and that makes me reallllllly happy!