Day 14 of BCPS........Right now I am feeling amazing. This morning was a different story! God is good and He is the one who gets me over these humps! We are getting closer.....WOOT!
Today is a special day for me because I am fasting until dinner time. I have a friend who asked if I could meet with her and her friend (who struggles with infertility) & offer some encouragement and I jumped on that opportunity. I believe we go through struggles on this earth to help others out who are struggling. God brings all the right people together. So we decided to fast until we meet for dinner because we believe fasting opens up doors and allows us to get closer with the Lord. Fasting is a way to say no to "self" and really depend on God to satisfy our every need. He comes through every time. I am hungry and I have a slight headache, but if it brings me closer to my Savior I will have faith and fast. I believe God has heard our prayers and that He is ready to bless us with the children that we desire, but in HIS time. I am praying and hoping for a successful IVF and I am ready to see God do BIG things. I am not perfect, but I am His child and He delights in me and I delight in Him.
I am so ready to start stimulation meds and kick these bcps to the curb. Ready to get my eggs awake and moving.....I am ready to create little baby embryo's (something me and my husband have never done). That will be a milestone in itself. Im sure I will be totally speechless when I know we finally created something we've been trying to create for 5 years! Thank you Lord for the staff at Carolina Conceptions and for this opportunity.
2 Corinthians 12:9-10 God's Grace is Sufficient.
But he said to me, "My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness, so that Christ's power may rest on me. That is why, for Christ's sake, I delight in weaknesses, in insults, in hardships, in persecutions, in difficulties. For when I am weak I am strong.
Thursday, January 31, 2013
Tuesday, January 29, 2013
This is going to be short and sweet and to the point...I DO NOT LIKE BCPS! Oh my heavens they are making me into a woman my husband does not like. Poor guy. I have to remember that it is all for a wonderful cause. I want to get my Baby Jones and if this is part of it I will take it.
Only 7 more days of the pills and that makes me really happy....Baseline Ultrasound on Feb 4th and then starting stimulation meds on Feb 9th. Woot!
My family and friends are so awesome and I honestly don't know where I would be without them. They are hosting a Spaghetti Fundraiser on March 1st to help with our medical bills due to infertility and IVF. People have already been so generous with donations that we will not have to come out of pocket at all for medications! My mom had come across some old books at an auction at her work months ago and bought over a hundred books for a whopping $1...She realized that these books were worth something and she contacted a friend who knew a friend who collected old books and he bought those books for $900.00!!! All went towards the Baby Jones Fund. Amazing. Speechless. God is good!!
Only 7 more days of the pills and that makes me really happy....Baseline Ultrasound on Feb 4th and then starting stimulation meds on Feb 9th. Woot!
My family and friends are so awesome and I honestly don't know where I would be without them. They are hosting a Spaghetti Fundraiser on March 1st to help with our medical bills due to infertility and IVF. People have already been so generous with donations that we will not have to come out of pocket at all for medications! My mom had come across some old books at an auction at her work months ago and bought over a hundred books for a whopping $1...She realized that these books were worth something and she contacted a friend who knew a friend who collected old books and he bought those books for $900.00!!! All went towards the Baby Jones Fund. Amazing. Speechless. God is good!!
Thursday, January 24, 2013
Day 7 of BCPS...Getting better!
I feel like changing the font today because I feel like a new woman:) Yup, that's right! Birth Control Pills will not win this battle. Thank you Lord for a renewed sense of peace. I know I can always count on you.
So I had acupuncture yesterday to get these ovaries out of sleep mode (well they aren't really sleeping, but we are going to get them nice and vibrant! I have to say that the needles in the ovary area was a tiny bit uncomfortable while going in, but anything for a Baby Jones RIGHT? I honestly will do anything that is statistically proven to help with conceiving w/IVF. We didn't come this far to not try our best. As I was laying on the table and relaxing I got really excited about knowing that two embryo babies that me and my DH (dear husband) create will be implanted and living in my uterus for hopefully 9 months. Either way the process will be amazing. We've never created a baby together and it just hit me that this will be happening no matter what and that alone is just breathtaking and makes my heart so happy. I PRAY that God sees fit to let us carry the baby(ies)for 9 months and then I hope HE allows us the biggest reunion with our long awaited miracle child.
I will not lie about my emotions because that would be me not facing my fears, but this process is trying and will be trying by the time it is all said and done, but I know we can get through it. Kari Jobe sings an awesome song "Healer" and I will post lyrics. I might try to sing this at my church on Feb 3rd:)I figured I would post the actual song...Enjoy!
So I had acupuncture yesterday to get these ovaries out of sleep mode (well they aren't really sleeping, but we are going to get them nice and vibrant! I have to say that the needles in the ovary area was a tiny bit uncomfortable while going in, but anything for a Baby Jones RIGHT? I honestly will do anything that is statistically proven to help with conceiving w/IVF. We didn't come this far to not try our best. As I was laying on the table and relaxing I got really excited about knowing that two embryo babies that me and my DH (dear husband) create will be implanted and living in my uterus for hopefully 9 months. Either way the process will be amazing. We've never created a baby together and it just hit me that this will be happening no matter what and that alone is just breathtaking and makes my heart so happy. I PRAY that God sees fit to let us carry the baby(ies)for 9 months and then I hope HE allows us the biggest reunion with our long awaited miracle child.
I will not lie about my emotions because that would be me not facing my fears, but this process is trying and will be trying by the time it is all said and done, but I know we can get through it. Kari Jobe sings an awesome song "Healer" and I will post lyrics. I might try to sing this at my church on Feb 3rd:)I figured I would post the actual song...Enjoy!
Monday, January 21, 2013
Jan 20th blogging post:) My computer was acting silly yesterday!
Let me just start by saying today has been one of my 1st rough days through this journey. Day 4 of BCPS & I was down for the count today:( I have just felt yucky (like fatigue, weird bowels(tmi?) & just out there! I took an afternoon nap & I can't tell if that made it worse or better. I missed churched which I do not like at all, but I had to listen to my body. Throughout this process I hope that I'm able to attend my church services like normal, but I am not sure what time my injections will be so I might miss a few services due to the time frame of those. You HAVE to do injections at a certain time & not go over or under by 20 minutes I think. So it's a pretty strict process. I will do whatever it takes if it will get me closer to Baby Jones.
On the brighter side of things my God is still able & our IVF education class is tomorrow @ 2pm! Woot! Can't believe it's actually here.
So my DH (dear husband) that's infertility talk by the way will be signing all our consents tonight & will be going over the paperwork! Then we will be able to ask ?'s, will be shown how to give myself the injections & will be getting a calendar of everything that will be happening in the upcoming weeks... Super excited to have a plan! It has truly been a blessing from God to be where we are now. He has def been at work. I can look back now & know He was guiding us:)
~This is a outline for what we will be doing the next few weeks~
Birth Control pills for 14-21 days
Lupron or another med for 10 days- suppresses the ovulation process (they say this is a really rough time through cycle)
10 days of injections (stimulation for your ovaries) got to get those eggs partying!!
Ultrasounds throughout the med proceed to see how the eggs are doing, how many etc...
Hcg (which causes you to ovulate 36-48 hours later)
Retrieval appt soon after to get those eggs (I'll be sedated)
Sperm retrieval that same day (egg & sperm meet) & they hopefully "hit it off" and create nice looking embryos! We are hoping for quality over quantity!
Transfer time (hopefully a 5 day transfer) & bam I'm PUPO (pregnant until proven otherwise)
2WW (two week wait) this is one of the most trying times of someone going through infertility! The way I will make it is with God on my side:)
Job 5:9 He performs wonders that cannot be fathomed, miracles that cannot be counted!
I looooooooooove that verse:)
On the brighter side of things my God is still able & our IVF education class is tomorrow @ 2pm! Woot! Can't believe it's actually here.
So my DH (dear husband) that's infertility talk by the way will be signing all our consents tonight & will be going over the paperwork! Then we will be able to ask ?'s, will be shown how to give myself the injections & will be getting a calendar of everything that will be happening in the upcoming weeks... Super excited to have a plan! It has truly been a blessing from God to be where we are now. He has def been at work. I can look back now & know He was guiding us:)
~This is a outline for what we will be doing the next few weeks~
Birth Control pills for 14-21 days
Lupron or another med for 10 days- suppresses the ovulation process (they say this is a really rough time through cycle)
10 days of injections (stimulation for your ovaries) got to get those eggs partying!!
Ultrasounds throughout the med proceed to see how the eggs are doing, how many etc...
Hcg (which causes you to ovulate 36-48 hours later)
Retrieval appt soon after to get those eggs (I'll be sedated)
Sperm retrieval that same day (egg & sperm meet) & they hopefully "hit it off" and create nice looking embryos! We are hoping for quality over quantity!
Transfer time (hopefully a 5 day transfer) & bam I'm PUPO (pregnant until proven otherwise)
2WW (two week wait) this is one of the most trying times of someone going through infertility! The way I will make it is with God on my side:)
Job 5:9 He performs wonders that cannot be fathomed, miracles that cannot be counted!
I looooooooooove that verse:)
Saturday, January 19, 2013
Day 3 of BCPS = a very different person. Lol! I'm not sure I like the way I feel and even more importantly I'm not sure my husband likes the way I am acting....I feel very out of it so to speak. This is the journey we have to take & I am buckling up because I know it is going to be a roller coaster of a emotions!
On the flip side of things it is very beautiful out today and it just reminds me of how God is faithful and He will bring sunshine in our life when it seems it is very dark and cloudy. No matter the situation and the circumstance JOY does come in the morning. I've ?'nd things a lot & God has always shown me that He is right their and to wait because He was working. That word "wait" is extremely controversial because in my human mind I just don't understand why my desire wasn't being fulfilled and why "I" had to WAIT. I have learned over the last 4 1/2 years that God has a bigger plan and even if I knew exactly what that was would I be satisfied? Probably not. The waiting and praying has made me appreciate the life that God creates within the womb. It is something only He creates.
On the flip side of things it is very beautiful out today and it just reminds me of how God is faithful and He will bring sunshine in our life when it seems it is very dark and cloudy. No matter the situation and the circumstance JOY does come in the morning. I've ?'nd things a lot & God has always shown me that He is right their and to wait because He was working. That word "wait" is extremely controversial because in my human mind I just don't understand why my desire wasn't being fulfilled and why "I" had to WAIT. I have learned over the last 4 1/2 years that God has a bigger plan and even if I knew exactly what that was would I be satisfied? Probably not. The waiting and praying has made me appreciate the life that God creates within the womb. It is something only He creates.
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Friday, January 18, 2013
Day 2 of the beginning of my IVF cycle😀. I started taking my BCPS yesterday evening & will know more on Monday when we have our Nurse Education Class. I'm hoping I don't start feeling crazy with the BCPS because it's been over a decade since I've taken them, but I'll do what I have to do to her closer to my Baby Jones:)
I've been super busy w/ my job the last 3 weeks & finally beginning to slow down a bit. I've been wanting to seriously blog everyday, but not been able to do that so IVF decided to do it now all the way through the IVF process. I'm sure I will need this time alone to process my thoughts, worries, anxieties & feelings, but I want to make sure I go through this process with an open mind & knowing that I do not hold the final outcome... My Savior Jesus Christ does. He has been my ROCK through these 5 years of the unknown. Without Him I would not be doing IVF. He has placed me on this part of my journey & I am so grateful & blessed. He will be the one I spend a lot of time with through these next few weeks. He will have to reassure me I'm sure that He is in control & that things will be just fine in the end, with or without baby. John 16:33 tells us that "These things I have spoken to you, that in ME you will have peace. In the world you will have tribulation; but be of good cheer, I have overcome the world."
My goal through this journey is for it to be memorable & for God to be glorified. I want to be where He wants me to be & I want to honor Him while going through these days of not the knowing, nervousness, excitement & fear... He will deliver me from this. God is good ALL the time God is good:)
I've been super busy w/ my job the last 3 weeks & finally beginning to slow down a bit. I've been wanting to seriously blog everyday, but not been able to do that so IVF decided to do it now all the way through the IVF process. I'm sure I will need this time alone to process my thoughts, worries, anxieties & feelings, but I want to make sure I go through this process with an open mind & knowing that I do not hold the final outcome... My Savior Jesus Christ does. He has been my ROCK through these 5 years of the unknown. Without Him I would not be doing IVF. He has placed me on this part of my journey & I am so grateful & blessed. He will be the one I spend a lot of time with through these next few weeks. He will have to reassure me I'm sure that He is in control & that things will be just fine in the end, with or without baby. John 16:33 tells us that "These things I have spoken to you, that in ME you will have peace. In the world you will have tribulation; but be of good cheer, I have overcome the world."
My goal through this journey is for it to be memorable & for God to be glorified. I want to be where He wants me to be & I want to honor Him while going through these days of not the knowing, nervousness, excitement & fear... He will deliver me from this. God is good ALL the time God is good:)
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